I want to bang my head against a wall.

Man, today sucked eggs. I had to met with Houston's preschool. He makes the cut off by one day and I am getting pressure to let him go to Kindy. I think it is a BAD idea especially with his Autism. We shall see....it may get ugly:(

I was there about 2 hours and we got nothing done really so we will have another IEP meeting...this is pure h*ll for a control freak like me....**sigh**

Oh well, keep you posted :P Not that anyone even reads this dang thing:P

A meme about Me Me

1. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? I love zoes for casual..my fav is a local mexican place
2. What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?Anything ethnic
3. Have you ever had anything removed from your body? A few things the two biggest...a 2lb tumor and the other would be a baby :*(
4. What is the last heavy item you lifted? My child is heavy but probably a cheerleader
5. Have you ever been knocked unconscious? I have passed out from pain and was knocked out in a wreck
6. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?Nah.
7. If you could change your name, what would you change it to? Way to many to name :) I do love Lola, Seraphina,Lily, Penelope, Phoebe, and about 100 others
8. What’s your goal for the year? to lose some weight
9. Last person you hugged? my son :)
10. First place you went this morning? took Houston to school
11. Do you always answer your phone? I screen ;)
12. It’s four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?Wrong number
13. If you could change your eye color what would it be?I wouldn't I think mine are unique
14. What’s on your wish list for your birthday?tummy tuck...one day
15. Does the future make you more nervous or excited? nervous
16. Do you have any saved texts? usually not a lot
17. Ever been in a car wreck? yeah
18. Do you have an accent? for sure....a twang
19. What was the last song to make you cry? I cry all the time :)
20. What did you do last night? Couldn't sleep had my treatment yesterday
21. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? I have had some sucky luck but you have to trust in God
22. Current hate right now? IEP's
23. Met someone who changed your life? God
24. How did you bring in the New Year? Like a kid
25. What song represents you? I don't know what do you all think??

5 Things I want my child to know.....

1. I will love him no matter what. There is nothing he could ever do that woul make me love even the tiniest bit less.

2. My life is better because of him. I can't imagine my life without him. God made the perfect child for me.

3. I wouldn't change his Autism even if I could...because it makes him him. I wouldn't trade any of my little mans quirks even if I could.

4. God loves him even more than Mommy and Daddy. We thank God every night that we were chosen to be your parents. Not sure what we did to deserve you but we will always try to do what is best for you.

5. I wish I was healthier. It makes me a little sad that he will never remember me as not being sick..but I think it causes me to savor everyday just that extra bit more :)

How about you all?

A piece of me...

I stole this from Ariana's blog :)

Survey

I saw this on Chris's blog and like it.


How old will you turn in 2009?
28:P

Would you date someone 8 years older than you?
Jeremy is 6 years older than me...so yeah.

What were you doing at 4am?
Helping Jeremy get his stuff together for work.

What were your first thoughts this morning?
I don't feel like I slept and I better let the neighbors dog out

Are you a jealous person?
Nah..I do have a twinge of envy for pretty things some times though...I love seeing big families so I guess there is a little envy there.

Is there anything that has messed up your life?
Yeah. Getting sick is probably the biggest thing.

Do you have a best friend?
Two or three.

Where was your default picture taken?
My pic of Houston was taking at his tball game..I feel ugly so no pics of me :)

What is bothering you right now?
Feeling overwhelmed about to go to the DMV and go swimming :P

Is there any meaning behind your profile song?
Just like it.

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
In the aftelife yes....here not really but you can make yourself miserable.

Do you trust people easily?
No and it's something I'm working on.

One thing you're looking forward to?
Seeing my little man, getting smarter everyday.

What was the last thing you drank?
Haven't had anything today :P

Are most of the best friends in your life new or old?
My closest friends I've known for a while.

Do you like pulp orange juice?
Yes. I like it either way.

Which could you tolerate more, a sleep walker or someone who snores?
Sleepwalker...I am a very light sleeper.

Would you ever parachute off of a plane?
yes

Is your birthday on a holiday?
no but right between Thanksgiving and Christmas...12/4

Do you want to hit something?
I am a thrower...then I am fine...never around others though

Is your ex still in your life as a friend?
He could be, but no, I don't think that's appropriate.

Would you ever get a tattoo?
yes, and I would get more

What's your mood?
Anxious

Who's the last person you hugged?
Houston

Day been rough?
Yesterday was...Today should be better

Is there someone you want to be with right now?
Everybody..I hate not living close to anyone

Plans for your next birthday?
I never do anything.

Tell me about the shirt you're wearing?
A t shirt...trying to decide what to wear for my dl picture :P

Do you remember who you liked in 7th grade?
Hm...a few ;)

What are you up to this weekend?
I would love to go to the Lebanese festival not sure if it's in the cards.

How do you vent your anger?
Shove it all inside and then it spills over...it takes a lot to get me angry

Can you crack your knuckles?
No I have arthritis..not sure they would even crack :P

What color is your mouse pad?
Don't have one

What time did you wake up this morning?
4 am then went back to sleep at 5:30 and slept until like 7

Have you ever left class to do anything naughty in the bathroom?
I was never in school while I was married so nope.

How many different people of the opposite sex have you REALLY cried over?
Just a couple.

Would your parents be mad if you were in a relationship?
I would hope they would want me to be happy

What was the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Checked email, made sure I had stuff ready to go for today and sat out the hubby work stuff.

Do you feel comfortable with answering personal questions?
Yeah,as long as it isn't about the nasty.

Do you think age matters in relationships?
Yes....when you are a teenager...now not so much

What will you do after this?
Go swim dmv,etc. then come home and clean **blech**

Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
I am closed off

What are you listening to?
Houston singing...
Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
For a while it will be just me and Houston ...

Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?
Of course.

Would you go in public looking like you do right now?
No...about to finish getting ready

What's something that can always make you feel better?
my friends and family

Do you think your best friend and you will be friends in 10 years?
Yes, totally.

Have you had any beer this week?
nope...i don't do beer :P

Did you laugh a lot at something today?
my child :)

For today... 15th

Outside my window... It is a chilly, brisk day...it is sunny though


I am thinking... about all the things I have to do. I need to go to the dry cleaners,clean, lunch, etc.

Houston is......about to get a bath, taking him to subway, right now he is buliding with blocks while I check my email....and we are waiting on the tub to fill.

Thankful for... my family. The hubby suprised me last night with my fav yankee candle, a beautiful card and a beautiful engraved silver box and new rosary :)

For super.....No idea...I may not cook. I have ton of left over from last night...Grilled chicken, rice, and beans. I have a late night at church.

I am wearing... Shorts, a t-shirt and flips...about to put on black capris, black and white shirt

I am reading... A ton of books!

I am watching....nothing...I hear something on in the other room.


I am praying... for tons of friends and family

Around the house...I need to mop, do a few dishes and fold clothes

One of my favorite things...my friends and family.

I dread...having to run to pay the water,go by the library, and have to pay insurance.

I need....to renew my license :O

I hate........the feeling of dry dirt on my hands...LOL

I wish....I could be healthy

I need...to get a move on :P

Favorite chore.....is there such a thing???

Least favorite chore....probably washing dishes...I don't trust my dishwasher :P OCD anyone?

Eight

8 Things I am Looking Forward To:


1) The Lebenese Festival this weekend, if I get to go!
2) Seeing friends at church tonight.
3) Playing with my son.
4) The neighbors getting home so I don't have to clean up after there dogs anymore...LOL
5) Sunday, because I can go up and take communion :)
6) Playing outside today.
7) Spring...I love the spring and the fall, lately is has been really stormy :(
8) The weekend

8 Things I Did Yesterday:

1) went to Moms group
2) went to the bookstore and played trains
3) went to see monsters vs aliens
4) cleaned
5) messed around on the internet
6) had a picnic
7) played at the park
8) cooked

8 Things I Wish I Could Do:

1) fit into a size 4
2) sing
3) travel anywhere and everywhere
4) Meet the Pope.
5) get to go visit all my family up north
6) be more organized
7) have a healthy immune system
8) have more self confidence

8 Shows I Watch:
loser and that is it.

I am not a big tv person but...I do like

AI, I haven't watch in a few years but Adam drew me back in....
DWTS- I wish I could dance like that
Toddlers and Tiaras because it is a trainwreck
I also like anything true crime, or on tlc or the discovery channel.
I also like Project Runway.

I have never watched an episode of Grey's, Housewives,etc.

8 People I Tag:

Any of the poor souls who suffer through reading this blog.

Chuck E. Bob's eyes freak me out and Tales from the Communion line

An Easter recap :)

We will start with Saturday. Saturday morning I had to be at church to practice for the Easter Vigil that night. I get up and leave Houston with Jeremy. Practice goes well.

I come home and hubby is acting a little sheepish. I notice his hair is shorter.
I think worst case scernio I will have to help him even out the back or something. He turns to the side and I am speechless. He has a half dollar size area where you can see his scalp :O He then asks me if I can fix it. After, I get my wits about me, I assure him even though I used to work as a Receptionist in a salon, I can not fix it. He puts on his hat like a trooper and we head out for the day. We want to make sure we take Houston to see the Easter Bunny, who Houston informs everyone is named "Chuck E. Bob" Okey Dokey....whatever you say.

So we get there and wait in line FOREVER. Houston is smiling and calling out "Chuck E. Bob, I love you!" He is also giving a way cute wave.

We think that last year was a thing of the past....he is going to love him this year.
Well, we get almost to the front and one of the helpers says they were out of something and takes off running to get something, stating that they were out of whatever. She runs down the ramp and is almost to where she needs to be when it happens...She face plants on the floor. Everyone is silent. You heard gasps and then silence. She was a trooper though. She is up in a blink of and eye and screams out "I am ok" and then runs to where she needs to go. The other helper being so startled has spilt her drink everywhere....yeah.

So anyway, we get up there and Houston is starting to have "that" look on his face. He is panicking. So anyway we are there and Jeremy is walking Houston up to the bunny. I have my camera ready so I can have more than one pic and Houston loses it.
He gets stiff as a board when Jeremy tries to put him in the bunny's lap. He says" No, get me away from Chuck E. Bob. I can't see his eyes...he is freaking me out!" Then wrangles lose and is crawling toward me on his hands and knees while moaning....Then he gets to me and starts to tear up and tells the bunny. "I no love you Chuck E. Bob."

We get over to the side...he gathers himself...and tells the bunny that he does love him and he was sorry.

So we leave and head to the hair place. Houston and I are in the front of the salon, hubby goes to the back. They start to cut the hubby's hair. Houston says " Oh, no what is her doing to mine daddy's hair!" She is not cutting it so well!" "She doesn't know what her is doing." "She is cutting off all his nice hair" I took this as a time to tell Houston not to play with scissors......LOL

Hubby finishes up. Houston keeps asking him " Are you upset....it will be okay." LOL

So we get home and play for a little while. I then start to worry about something that they had said earlier at practice..."Whatever you do, don't drop the Chalice." Considering the chalice has Christ's blood in it, I start to freak out!

So anyway, we get there...and my bladder is filling all the stress of the worrying and I pee about 900 times. We file in for the mass which is going to last for over 2 hours and we are on the front row of our hug church. We begin and it hits me hard. I am about to pee in my pants. Oh my, I then internally freak out. I know I can't hold it. I then decide I have to tell my sponsor. I end up sneaking out of the totally dark church and sneaking back in. Crisis averted. So then the people being baptized have to kneel on the alter. It is made of marble. We had to kneel for about 5-10 minutes which doesn't sound like a long time...but it is. Long enough for your legs to start to twitch and your leg to fall asleep.

I made it up....LOL We make it to the font. I am baptized...We do all the other stuff. It goes well.

It time for communion. I don't drop the chalice. All that worrying for nothing.I was the first person to go. The line was forever. The ran of wine before the last guy gets there...he says "You are out of wine, crack open another bottle" Nice dude...not quite the time or the place.

We have reception afterwords. I get home at almost 12. Jeremy has been with Houston from about 6- midnight. Jeremy got a taste of the Big Cheese first hand. He had to go out to the garage to get something. Came in and Houston was trying to remove Nemo from his tank...he had poured all his food in and was worried about him being in the dirty water:P Jeremy had to empty the tank and refill it.

Anyway, we woke up the next morning and Jeremy didn't feel good so Houston and I made the choice to head out by ourselves. We had made the rounds and visited the families. It was very fun.

Easter was wonderful! I am sorry it is over :*( It is probably my favorite Holiday.

I am going to close with some pics...

Me at the font.




Houston giving me....the " I can't believe I am related to you ....look"

Our pretty church :)



Houston's goodies at our house. He got a TONNNNNN at all the family stuff.

Hope you can make some sense...

After his EEG a few weeks ago...my little egghead :)

............Of that last post. I was dictated to by Big Cheese.:) He wanted to type...but that would have taken all night. He is all about typing:P

He is a cutie pie. Love him to pieces.

Deep thoughts by Houston Chance

Dictated and copied exactly by Mommy:
UFOS:

UfO's fly. They crash.They crash in Roswell. Armed inforcers came.His name started with a T...or an H like me.They crashed into Roswell. I saw Phoenix lights.They were flying over Arizona. We saw it.It had 8 circles. It was a triangle shaped alien.The aliens crashed, we saw them. They turned around...and saw Betty Cash.She saw them aliens and then had to go the hospital.She was got her DNA by the aliens.Aliens got different DNA.

It burned her. Then there was a tornado of aliens. They could fly.It went over the back of Arizona. It was a an object. It flied over evil. They was good people.

Armed inforcers saw an object in a space field.They heard backwards talking. They said that couldn't be an air ballon. I know it. An air ballon is dark.We said why did aliens crashed.The armed inforcers didn't know.They didn't know what the object was.

They said "Uh, oh." Aircrafts started falling.It got dark in the sky.It disappeared. We saw burning.It was nonesense.It was a bunch of aliens in a circle. So they could see better. They saw an object from our side. It was crashing.

Another thing was snow was flying in that sky. Why that? Roswell, Mexico..armed inforcers detect and saw an object.They never seen them again.Anymore.They saw some objects.It looked like bouncing things that they could control.

Betty Cash saw an object in the air.They was flying.They looked like they were bouncing and crashed. It got so loud. It startied getting so loud.They were flying in the sky and then crashed in Roswell on the ground.

I know it crashed.It's not a owl.It's not a big foot.Why those monsters run like this.They run and run and run.The monster got on the house.She screamed then go home.

I saw bouncy things crash. I crashed in Roswell.It was an explosion.What am I talking about? Where is our keys?I have them here.





BUTTERFLIES:

Butterflies live in acoons.Butterflies used to caterpillars.

I love you. (Aw...!!)

They fly.Octupus don't have wings. Butterflies do.

Bees have stingers.They yellow and black.

Butterflies are black and yellow too.

Ball games and Blue Angels....

We had a big weekend ...it was busy busy busy.

On Friday Houston had tball practice. It was the longest hour of my life:P Then we had to go get cleats. It was such the production. I need a 13.5 wide. Yeah, IMPOSSIBLE to find. He feet were too wide for the baseball cleats so we had to go with the soccer cleats. Oh well.

Anyway, so Houston had a friend spend the night on Friday to. I thought it would mellow him out. No such luck :P

The next day we had the opening day for Tball and Tball pictures..I will have to share the pics when we get them. They will be interesting for sure:P Yeah.

On to the game...he is by no means the MVP. We count it a success if he will stand where he is supposed to for most of the inning.

So after the two innning game that felt like it was 10 hours long and was beyond funny to watch, we went to the an airshow. The Blue Angels came to town. It was soooooo packed. Houston had a ton of fun. He loves that kind of thing. It is right up his alley.

We were so tired when we got done. Pooped.

We watched some stuff on tv as a family. We love the educational stuff.

Then yesterday I had a Palm Sunday retreat. I have such a busy week with church this next week. I have to be there onTuesday, Thursday, Friday and twice on Saturaday and then Sunday. I may just sleep there :) LOL The only bad thing is no childcare on Thursday and Friday night.Oh well.

Anyway, after Saturday I can take communion. Yay, me. It will be weird after all this tiime to be able to take it and not just get a blessing.

The weather outstide is NASTY...it's sooooo windy. It feels like fall. I am worried and waiting until the last minute to get Easter clothes...I hate not knowing whether to go with cool weather or warm weather clothes.

Also can I rant for a second. Why, is it sooooooo HARD to find Sunday dresses that aren't sleeveless or strapless. It is the bane of my existence. Seriously. I hate that there are literally two choices in a whole store that have sleeves.

I will write more later...sorry for the rambling..LOL

The Mumps...seriously...

We thought I had just been having issues with the salivary glands...infections. It hasn't been clearing up. This has been going on since like October...super painful.

Well it looks like after the preliminary stuff...still waiting on a blood test...that no it is the MUMPS...which is viral...which is why the antibotics...haven't been helping...

Yeah, the joy of having a compromised immune system is the gift that keeps on giving!

It's like Christmas 365 days a year. :P

My mom is flying up to visit fam..I am totally jealous but super excited for the next two weeks of church. :)

Got to see the inside of our new church last night...it is breathtaking...**sigh**