Sunday, November 30, 2008

Sorry I have been the world's worst blogger:P

I have been sick almost the whole last three months.

I have had ear infections, a lymphatic infection, lymodema, cellulitis, lung infections, salivary gland infections, infections of my other name it it has happened :P

I finally got feeling good enough and stopped running a fever and get 9 million new fever blisters a day and I get a stomach virus Thanksgiving night ;P

Yeah, I just may kiss my nurse when I see her to give me my transfusion on the 4th which happens to be my birthday. Nothing like having a blunt needle stuck in your chest that says "Celebration" :P Hey most years I am in the hospital :P I have even had surgery on my birthday :P

All I want for Christmas is some B and T cells :P It ain't going to happen.

I am just praying that I can stay well enough not to end up in the hospial during the holidays :P Been there done that, bought the shirt :P

Sorry to be a downer just worn out :P

On happier news...I will share some Houston funnies....

Last night he said ...
" jade, i growed in your tomach (stomach) like a veggiable (vegetable)" I tink I was an apple."


He was very concerned after seeing Santa.

He got all serious and said

" Jade, when did Santa get so FaK (fat). He has a big ol' fak belly. Poor Santa."

He cracks me up.

We were telling him we have to help pappapw because he is almost like a baby.

He said " Pappaw is one OLD baby."

He says it all so serious and you can tell he is thinking so hard :)

I am proud of my booger.

I will update more postive things later.

I will feel kinda bad this week. Got my treatment and stuff but I will try to update.

I will be the big 72....I mean 27 for my birthday on Thursday. :P I feel 100.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Busy bee busy bee...

Sorry I haven't updated in a few days. I have been so busy. On Friday we had more testing to get the educational Autism diagnosis, actually PDD-NOS. It is on the autism spectrum. I didn't think it would take quite as long as it did. It took hours and hours and I had to be there the whole time. My brain hurt from all that thinking...LOL

We then drove a few hours away and went to his buddy Trent's bday. It was fun..but tiring. We spent the night and the party was Saturday. Candice is my hero for having like 20 kiddos and parents in her house. I would need a tranqulizer

Then we drove home and of course Houston had a seizure so I felt like I needed to watch him like a hawk :P He makes me so nervous when he vomits with them because I am scared he is going to choke.

To say I am tired is an understatement...LOL

Monday, November 03, 2008

Today has kinda sucked eggs....seriously.

The hubby was off today and I was feeling overwhelmed having him and Houston home today... I am sooo Type A I can't handle not having a plan...I seriously could have used my Xanax prescription I haven't gotten filled today. I have 11 prescriptions left I think I may be getting on filled. It that makes me weak. Well then I am :P

I get so overwhelmed with what I need to do that I can become totally overwhelmed. I then start the panicking and crying. I know this is IRRATIONIONAL but still can't get ahold of myself.

My problem is I get way to into things. Today I decided to cook chicken. How many lbs do you think I cooked. Try about then I felt like I had to decide what to do with it. So I made 12 enchilidas :P I guess I am freezing some :P and a huge chicken pot pie and and I still have 2 lbs that I need to do something with :P I was in the kitchen for hours today cleaning and cooking. I need to manage my time better. I am not a good time manager :P

Am I the only one like this?

I am a flawed perfectionist. I get so focused on doing something that I can't see the forrest for the trees..kwim?


Like the other day I spent ALL DAY totally reorgainzing the kitchen...I think I get almost "manic" about stuff. Does anyone else do this?

Anyway, I will be quiet before you think I am totally nuts.

Sorry for all the horrible acts of bad grammar and spelling. I am not even going to try to be correct.It's a losing battle.:P

She likes me she really likes me (Said in my best Sally Field voice)

I got my first award!!!!!!!!!!! Whew hew!!!!!!! I have at least one reader ;)

My blogger buddy Dana at had this to say about my blog.....

jade & i crossed paths on a message board. we were both posting on a thread that questioned religions (we're both catholic) and we started noticing we had A LOT in common. after multiple e-mails, it was confirmed that jade is my long, lost lebanese sister! jade has the best sense of humor and her blogging is honest and uncut. she has an adorable son, houston, who is h-i-l-a-r-i-o-u-s! check her out!

Thanks for all the wonderful praise. I am wondering if you are reading my blog...LMAO??!!

Dana is a great lady and I have offically adopted her as a family member. We are convinced we are related. We are both too cool not to be related ;)

I know her and her husband are going to be wonderful parents, hopefully soon! You are in my prayers!

There is also a Meme that comes with the award!

1. Where is your cell phone? next to me

2. Where is your significant other? at the BH dog movie with Houston

3. Your hair color? dark brown with lots of gray :P

4. Your mother? nuttier than a fruitcake but in a good way :) the apple doesn't fall far from the tree ;)

5. Your father? a real sweetheart

6. Your favorite thing? my family and friends

7. Your dream last night? It was wild...I can't remember all the details...but it was nuts.

8. Your dream/goal? happiness

9. The room you're in? living room

10. Your hobby? scrapbooking and reading

11. Your fear? Something happening to someone I love

12. Where do you want to be in six years? healthy

13. Where were you last night? watching "Purity Balls"

14. What you're not? totally confident....but I try to fake it;)

15. One of your wish list items? health,happiness and lots of dough to pay off my medical stresses me out.

16. Where you grew up? America

17. The last thing you did? looked up local races for tomorrow

18. What are you wearing? a blood drive tshirt...I can't donate but I get blood products monthly so I wear the shirt..and some levi's

19. Your T.V.? DWTS..I am still grieving the loss of Maks....**sigh**

20. Your Pet? the puppy and I have a love hate relationship...I love Crimson

21. Your computer? broken...bumming Jer's

22. Your mood? pissy....there I said it :P

23. Missing someone? a lot of of the joys of living away from everyone:P

24. Your car? a durango...that is apparently very attractive to other cars, especially in traffic lights...

25. Something you're not wearing? socks

26. Favorite store? book store or Gymboree

27. Your Summer? humid...It literally sucks out my brain ;P

28. Love someone? yep, a lot of people :)

29. Your favorite color? lime green....My name is Jade ;)

30. When is the last time you laughed? I laugh at Houston everyday.

31. When was the last time you cried? an hour or so ago...I am in a frustrated funk today....

I can not tag just one so I am thinking in threes....

1. First off Melissa at
I think we are a lot alike. I also love that we share a love for the catholic faith :) We are a lot alike and it helps me see that Cali and Alabama girls are more a like than you think :)

2. Next Melissa at
We met on a message board. We have kiddos that are the same age. I think we have a lot of the same values and yet again we have a lot in common. She is a strong woman and even though she is younger than me I look up to her :) She should be proud of herself.

3. The third is Ariana at
I met her on a message board as well. She has a beautiful family. I choose her blog because I can relate to being away from family. It makes me feel more normal ;) I also love her great pics. I think we also have a lot of the same values :)

I promise I am not a total nerd. I realize I don't "know" these people in real life but that is just a formality ;)

These women in some way have made me a better person....whether it is by making me feel more normal, realize I am not alone, give me kiddo advice or advice on my faith journey :)

Love your blogs ladies!

Sunday, November 02, 2008

Wanted to share...

We sung this at Mass is probably my favorite Hymn.

Shepherd Me, O God

Shepherd me, O God,
beyond my wants,
beyond my fears,
from death into life.

1. God is my shepherd,
so nothing shall I want,
I rest in the meadowsof faithfulness and love,
I walk by the quiet waters of peace.

2. Gently you raise me and heal my weary soul,
you lead me by pathways of righteousness and truth,
my spirit shall singthe music of your Name.

3. Though I should wander the valley of death,
I fear no evil,
for you are at my side,
your rod and your staff,
my comfort and my hope.

4. You have set me a banquet of love in the face of hatred,
crowning me with love beyond my power to hold.

5. Surely your kindness and mercy follow me all the days of my life;
I will dwell in the house of my God forevermore.

Happy All Souls Day :)

All Souls Day
All Soul's Day (sometimes called the "Day of the Dead") is always November 2 (November 3rd if the 2nd falls on a Sunday).

All Soul's Day is a Roman Catholic day of remembrance for friends and loved ones who have passed away. This comes from the ancient Pagan Festival of the Dead, which celebrated the Pagan belief that the souls of the dead would return for a meal with the family. Candles in the window would guide the souls back home, and another place was set at the table. Children would come through the village, asking for food to be offered symbolically to the dead, then donated to feed the hungry.

The day purposely follows All Saint's Day in order to shift the focus from those in heaven to those in purgatory. It is celebrated with masses and festivities in honor of the dead. While the Feast of All Saints is a day to remember the glories of Heaven and those there, the Feast of All Souls reminds us of our obligations to live holy lives and that there will be purification of the souls of those destined for Heaven.

The Christian holiday of All Soul's Day pays respect and remembers the souls of all friends and loved ones who have died and gone to heaven. The living pray on behalf of Christians who are in purgatory, the state in the afterlife where souls are purified before proceeding to heaven. Souls in purgatory, who are members of the church just like living Christians, must suffer so that they can be purged of their sins. It is a time to pray for their souls that they may be received into heaven.

Upon death, it is believed that souls have not yet been cleansed of sin. Praying for souls of loved ones helps to remove the stain of sin, and allow the souls to enter the pearly gates of heaven. Through prayer and good works, living members of the church may help their departed friends and family. There are three Requiem Masses that are said by the clergy to assist the souls from Purgatory to Heaven: one for the celebrant, one for the departed, and one for the pope.

The traditions of the Feast of All Souls began independently of the Feast of All Saints. The Feast of All Souls owes its beginning to seventh century monks who decided to offer the mass on the day after Pentecost for their deceased community members. In the late tenth century, the Benedictine monastery in Cluny chose to move their mass for their dead to November 2, the day after the Feast of all Saints. This custom spread and in the thirteenth century, Rome put the feast on the calendar of the entire Church. The date remained November 2 so that all in the Communion of the Saints might be celebrated together.

Many customs are associated with The Day of the Dead celebration. In the home an altar is made with an offering of food upon it. It is believed that the dead partake of the food in spirit and the living eat it later. The ofrendas (offerings) are beautifully arranged with flowers such as marigolds (zempasuchitl), which are the traditional flower of the dead. There is a candle placed for each dead soul, and they are adorned in some manner. Incense is also often used, and mementos, photos, and other remembrances of the dead also adorn the ofrenda.

It is also traditional in some areas to see the play Don Juan Tenorio. Paper mache and sugar skulls are popular, as are cardboard coffins from which a skeleton can be made to jump out. Special masks are also worn, allowing a person to achieve a facial expression for which they feel they are inadequate to achieve.

Traditional Catholics still honor customs related to the relief of the souls suffering in purgatory. One custom is for persons to pray six Our Fathers, Hail Mary's and Glory Be's for the intentions of the Pope in a church, and thereby, receive a plenary indulgence for a soul in purgatory. This action may be repeated for another soul, by leaving the church and re-entering it to repeat the prayers.

All Soul's Day lives on today, particularly in Mexico, where All Hallows' Eve, All Saint's Day and All Soul's Day are collectively observed as "Los Dias de los Muertos" (The Days of the Dead). First and foremost, the Days of the Dead is a time when families fondly remember the deceased. But it is also a time marked by festivities, including spectacular parades of skeletons and ghouls. In one notable tradition, revelers lead a mock funeral procession with a live person inside a coffin.