I have been the worst blogger in the history of blogging.

I just don't feel like anyone reads this dang thing..and I feel like I am pretty boring....well in real life, I just lose my charm on the small screen ;)

Let's see. I had the scare of my freaking life, seriously as scary as Houston's seizures when he had a bad adverse reaction to a new med.TERRIBLE. I will leave it at that.

I have been feeling like I have been run over by a mack truck and drug about a mile.
This time of year is bad for me so not unusual but worse than usual. So of course I wasn't surprised when the doc called and I have to get a another blood/iron infusion :P Gotta love being majorly chronic anemia among other things.YUCK YUCK. I really hope they have wireless Internet. I have been spoiled that I get my other infusions at home...gotta love a home health care nurse. :)

Houston's MRI for the tethered cord is fast approach, makes me want to vomit to even think about it because I mean it is my baby and his spine :(

We are having a hard time finding meds that are working for Houston has that is major stressor...but he is still as cute as ever.

I love my little guy, even if he is a wild child.

Oh, and we just redid Houston's room I will post pics in a bit :)

Does anyone still read this thing????

25 things about me...

25 random things about me....share yours :)

1. I am addicted to BBC.
2. I love Dr. Who and Torchwood. Jeremy loves them too :)
3. I am addicted to any dance show.
4. I have an inapprioate crush on Adam Lambert.
5. I am a tudor history buff.
6. I love to read historical books.
7. I have lots of scars.
8. I was born on the 4 of december, Jeremy on the 4th of november we got married on the 4th of January.
9. I gained 89 lbs with Houston and he was a almost 5 weeks early.
10. I got a new pair of boots I love.
11. I love the 80's still :)
12. I have a couple of friends who I have never "met" that I met on babyboards,etc.
13. I have listened to No Doubt since jr high.
14. I have listened to Shakira before she was cool.
15. I am catholic.
16. I love my church.
17. I love to read.
18. I am addicted to British Magazines.
19. Okay, really I am addicted to all things british.
20. And all things Lebanese :)
21. My mom, her mom, and most of my cousins shared a name. Marie
22. Houston is a family name in both mine and Jeremy's family so a great pick and it meant so much to my grandad.
23. I could almost be my younger sisters mother....people ask if she is mine.
24. I set off medical detectors.
25. I really want someone else to do this.

Blast from the past

These pics make me so happy.

I miss my little baby. He is a big boy now. I just get to see my baby ever now and then, but I love those litte glimpses.

Wave of Light- Light a Candle

Light a candle tonight at 7:00 tonight to remember all the babies who have been gone to soon.

It is National Stillbirth/Infant Loss/Miscarriage Rememberance Day.

I will light my three candles tonight. The biggest one being for my baby girl.

Thinking of all your little angels too!

I made a great find the other day....

I found the cutest bag that I am going to use for a scrapping tote....now my paper will have a home on the road.....

It is huge and it was only $1.48!!!!!!! It's cute huh? You could even use it for luggage I guess...by it fits srapping stuff perfectly. I had two people try to nab it from me on the way to the register...LOL

"Not MEEEE" Monday..

Not me...never me.

I am not sitting here watching Donny Osmand.....and wondering why I always hear "Secret Agent Man" as "Secret Asian Man"...I can't be the only one...right...NOT ME.

I didn't have to spend over $200 dollars at the grocery store because I had let the groceries get so low....I would never let my family be without food...NOT ME.

I didn't not let Houston not get a 6th movie at the library so I could get DWTS Cardio Dance...that would make me a selfish mommy...NOT ME.

I don't have an inapproriate crush on Maks on DWTS...that would be wrong...NOT ME.

I don't think that Aaron Carter's outfit made him look like the Lucky Charms dude...NOT ME.

I did not just pour myself a margarita....that would make me a lush....NOT ME!

I did not accidently bite into my fever blister...which was then hanging half on and half on...I did not just rip the attached part free...I then did not bleed in large amounts from said spot for abour 30 minutes...that would be DISGUSTING....NOT ME.

I do not STILL have a load of laundry to do...that would be really depressing...NOT ME.


How about "Not" you......

Sitting outside, enjoying the weather...

Man, we have had the best weather the last couple of days. I love love love the beginning of fall. That little bit of crispness you feel in the air, everything smells so clean.

I love sweatshirt weather. I love love love the fall.

Can I mention again that I love fall.

It puts a smile on my face for the humidity to be gone from the air and a hint of a breeze in it's place.

Had a busy day or errands today, I feel uber tired considering I just got my treatment. I am rocking a totally nasty looking fever blister which goes along nicely with the ulcers all in my mouth and down my throat.

I am thinking tomorrow when I go for my doc appt that the antibvirals are going to be upped...call me crazy ;)

I am going to take it easy tonight..watch me some tv, bath the kiddo, and relax...easier said than done.

Heros and DWTS is on....I will be frantically flipping between both but I can catch Heros on demand so I am not super worried.

I dread the drive to the doctor tomorrow. Last time I was there was a lady having a stroke in the car next to me that I had to help....only me. I hope she was okay.

Got some much needed grocery shopping done today, which with Houston is like the 5 circle of hell. Actually, he was great today though. He even let me pile things on him. I had to but him in one of those huge ones that you can barely control without taking out a display of something.

I have so much cleaning I need to get done this week. If I could get to half of it I would be happy. We will see.

Hope Houston has a good week at school. Mr. Chatterbox needs to keep his little trap closed. Imagine a child of mine a chatterbox...who would have thought...LOL. Heaven help Jeremy. I should just had him earmuffs when he comes in the door.

I am watching the sunset and thinking that life doesn't get much better, then I accidently bite into a mouth ulcer...and think okay it can... but it is pretty nice.

I love a beautiful sunset.

Long time no talk updates and more.

My computer died. I have been computerless for 2 weeks. It was tough but refreshing.

We are finally a little more well...yay, us. Got a few doc appts next week but they are the regular ones.

Houston had his 5 year check up. Looked pretty good but he has to have an MRI within the next month because it looks like he has a tethered spinal cord. We always new he had a dimple at the base of his spine that they have watched to make sure it wasn't leaking spinal fluid. Well now apparently it looks like the spinal cord is basically attached to his tailbone.

He has been a nightmare to be accident free in underwear. He constantly still has accidents. The ped seems to think that it is probably why. We always thought it was his seizure meds that were reducing senstation but basically if it is is tethered then the nerves are being pulled and that would explain it.

If it is thethered they will have to detach it because it can be very painful and you can get some major damage if it rips free.

So I will keep you posted on all that.

So he will be sedated and they will do an indepth scan to see what is up.

Of course, his appointment was yesterday. I watched Grey's Anatomy last night and what was wrong with the teenage boy. Same thing...what are the odds? :P

My hard drive had to be replaced so I gotta rebookmark...talk about a pain :P

A little glimpse into my mind....

I found a website that has all kinds of blog topics for a lazy blogger like me it is PERFECTION.
I am going to answer three:
_______________________________________________________________________________________
Question Uno-
My Favourite Item of Clothing Growing Up:

I had two the first were my jelly shoes. I loved these things...I had them in so many colors. They were perfection in my eyes except for the inevitable happened. You stepped on a rock.

It felt like a knife was going up the bottom of your foot...so you would do the one foot hobble until you could sit down to remove.

But they little waffle shaped pattern on bottom meant you had to use something akin to a prison shank to get it out.

Fun times.

My other favorite was this necklace. Not even sure what is was called. But I felt like the coolest cat in town. I remember my favorite charm was a little mini lipstick.



Now on to Question Dos....

If This Celebrity Knocked On My Door, I’d Run Away With Them:

It would have to be Adam Lambert. I know the man is gay....but there is something about him that is hot...what can I say.

Also, he seems like he would give way great fashion advice.

He seems like a really nice guy.

And last but not least have you heard him sing??

And the final question for today:

My Most Hated Movie:

I think this answer may get my woman card revoked. One actor I don't care for at all...is........
please don't throw things at me.....is.........

Tom Cruise.

I would rather have spikes driven in my eyes.

My least favorite movie would have to be Top Gun :O

What about you?

Testing testing...is this thing on...

Does anyone read this thing anymore.

Doesn't really seem like it. Try to decide if I should make it private and keep it as a journal, don't think anyone would miss it.

Last night I had fun. Went over to a friends house to scrapbook, for the first time in last a year. Me, so glad to be out of the house...really just ran my jaws, talked about infants,weddings, pregnancies...all that girlie stuff. So fun.

Then the shoe dropped...dundundudndun..I spilled a drink..which I still feel bad about. Luckily, most of the drink went into my scrapbooking bag. Good for me...not so good for the supplies...but who cares. I was terrified I had gimped up something at my friends house for life.

I still feel bad. I think I apologized to many times they wanted to take me out into the yard and beat me like a pinata. I would have wanted to ....I annoy myself quite a bit.

Houston is at my in-laws, Jeremy is working and on call...I have NO idea what to do with myself. I am thinking the library...whoooo hoooo I am SUCH the rebel. I am 110% NERD.No one my child calls me poindexter.

I am trying to find things to do besides clean...can you tell. If you can keep it to yourself ;)

Revamping the blog..just messing around.....

Not much going on today. Trying to stay awake. Didn't sleep much last night.

Last night, after much sleep deprivation I was hooking up my computer to watch netflix. The computer then fell off the tv. I proceed to avert my eyes...scared of what I would see.

My litte mini computer is fine. How is that possible?

I promise I will be back when I am not so loopy from no sleep:P

Just some notes from the last few days.

Friday- Houston had his party at preschool. With his mispelled birthday cake.



Saturday-We just did family fun stuff.Houston seemed a little puny. Got him a movie for his Birthday.

Sunday-Ran a fever. Didn't go to church :( Let him get O'Charley's for lunch. His pick. He didn't eat it....got more feverish.

Let him choose a birthday gift.

He choose a lego batman game and some megablocks.

Came home acted really sick.

Then the pukefest began.

Then he laid down.

Woke up puked more.

I drug his crib mattress...hey it's plastic easy to clean into the living room and laid it next to the couch where we laid the rest of the night....I thanked God many times last night that I had the foresight to get wood floors.

Woke up this morning....still puny but no "barking" as Houston says. :)

Happy Birthday!

5 years ago today...God gave the best gift ever

This precious little boy.Didn't find out I was pregnant until I was almost half way through,against the advice of the doctors...gained 89 lbs,went into premature labor at 29.5 weeks...was on bedrest from that point on,had him early......and you know what.........I wouldn't change a thing.

I love my little man with all my heart. I can still remember the feeling when they laid him on my chest. I can still remember holding him for the first time, nursing him for the first time, having to frantically cut surgerical masks to make him little g-string diapers when he was under the lights for jaundice.

I can still remember when I had the pleasure of holding up his little head because he couldn't do it himself.



I can still remember how he screamed constantly. Colic isn't fun.



But it is worth it.

Because they turn into smiley little boys like this.



Those little boys learn to do all kids of things...they think their mommy and daddy are the coolest people in the world.






They do get attitude from time to time but for the most part they are happy :)

It boggles my mind that you go from this:


To this..bring him home from the hospital.



To this,wearing his birthday hat in such a short time :(



It seems like only yesterday, I was holding a screaming baby, that he was getting his first tooth(4 months), walking (7.5months),saying his first word...which was hello. and now he loves batman, transformers, space, tornados


Sigh.

SHOW US YOUR WEDDING SHOWER...

I read http://www.kellyskornerblog.com daily, it's a great blog. She has the cutest baby girl, a great woman of God and she does all kinds of things like "Show us your Wedding", "Show us your Nurseries" etc.

This week....she wants to see your wedding shower...so here is my Bridal Tea...the only one I have pics of here :P

These were all predigi. The tea was in Nov. 2002, I got married in Jan. 2003.

Here they are:

They are pics from my scrapbook...so BEWARE ;)









Those are all the goodies and the tables:)

Here is the most shocking of all....



Yes, my hair is blonde....no my eyebrows aren't...not sure WHAT I was thinking but


I came to my senses and it was back to it's natural color by my wedding ;)

I can';t believe my baby will be 5 on

*Insert Witty Title*

I wish I didn't have such blog block.

I feel like I have the most boring blog on the block :P

It isn't easy to use,it isn't pretty and I wish it looked like all the blogs I liked...LOL

I think I would write more :P

This last week has been hellish to say the least. We all have had bronchitis....we are now the proud owners of a fire truck neubulizer.

They don't come cheap. I spend a few hundred dollars just on meds for the dang thing for us:P

Yeah.

Yesterday, I took Houston to see two movies. Jeremy had a work thing and we can't really get out in the heat...that is if we want to breathe so inside it was.
We saw X-games and then we saw Shorts. The X-game movie was good...shorts was stupid...in my opinion. Houston loved it though so I guess that made it worth it.

We got up and went to church this morning and I was still dragging from yesterday.

I think it is because my treatment is due. I can't get it until Tuesday though so one more day of feeling bad and Houston has a playdate here tomorrow...yeah...hope she doesn't mind a messy house ;P

Jeremy and I are watching Torchwood as I type...I think it is hilarious that I have gotten him hooked on British tv....Torchwood and Dr. Who are our favorites. I like that Houston can watch Dr. Who or Dr. Hoop as he calls him too.

Waiting on dinner to cook. I was craving a hamburger yesterday so I did what I rarely do.....went and bought ground beef....they smell good :) going to put some swiss on them and we are all good....:)

So what have you all been up to the last few days?

WAYYYY MORE THAN YOU EVER CARED TO KNOW ABOUT ME:)

Here you go...would love to find out about you



*BASICS*
NAME: Jade Marie
AGE: I will be 28 on my next birthday
BIRTHDAY: 12/4/81
SEX: female
BIRTH PLACE: birmingham
CURRENT LOCATION: tuscaloosa
EYE COLOR: gray with a yellow ring
HEIGHT: about 5'9
PEIRCINGS: ears
TATTOOS: one
WHAT COLOGNE/PERFUME DO YOU WEAR: I like lots of expenisive kinds..but alas I can't afford them;) So clinque happy is my favorite
*FAVORITES*
COLOR: lime green
MUSIC: I like everything
SPORT: gymnastics
HOLIDAY: christmas
FOOD: anything ethnic
*THIS OR THAT*
HUGS OR KISSES: kisses
PEPSI OR COKE: pepsi
MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING: burger king
CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: vanilla
LOVER OR FIGHTER: lover
FRIENDS OR FAMILY: both
LOVE OR MONEY: love
LISTEN TO SOMEONE TALK OR TALKING: talking
PERSONALITY OR LOOKS:
*IN A BOY/GIRL*
EYE COLOR: light
HAIR COLOR: dark
SHORT OR LONG HAIR: longer
HEIGHT: taller than me
STYLE: kind scruffy
PIERCINGS OR TATTOOS: love them
HOT OR CUTE:
*FRIENDS*
WHOS UR BEST FRIEND: I have a few
WHOS THE LOUDEST: chris
WHO HAVE U KNOWN LONGEST: holly
WHOS THE SHYEST: i don't have shy friends ;)
COOLEST FRIEND: they are all cool
PRETTIEST FRIEND: they are all beautiful
WEIRDEST FRIEND: i am the wierd friend
*LOVE*
ARE U IN LOVE: some days ;)
IF YOU'RE NOT IN LOVE NOW, HAVE U EVER BEEN: yeah
DO U BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: yeah
LONGEST RELATIONSHIP: 9 years jeremy
WOULD U GO OUT WITH SOMEONE JUST FOR THEIR MONEY: no
DO U GO ON: ????What??
KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: yes
SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: nope
EVER CHEATED ON A B/F OR G/F? BE HONEST: nope
*WHOS THE LAST PERSON*
KISSED: houston
HUGGED: houston
TOLD U THEY LOVED U: jeremy
TOLD THEM U LOVED THEM: houston
TALKED TO ON THE PHONE: mammaw
YELLED AT: houston
BROKE UR HEART: houston
SAID THEY HATED U: houston :(
U TOLD U HATED: the dog ;)
*RANDOM QUESTIONS*
DO U DO DRUGS: nope
DO U DRINK: some
DO U WANT TO GET MARRIED: i am married
DO U WANT TO HAVE KIDS: i have a kid
DO U BELIEVE IN URSELF: not like i should
DO U THINK UR ATTRACTIVE: not at all
WHAT STAR/CELEBRITY DO MOST PEOPLE SAY U RESEMBLE: usually brunettes with big lips :P
WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE U SAW IN THE THEATER? WAS IT GOOD: X-games and shorts...x games was good the other not so much
CAN U HANDLE THE TRUTH: yes
BIGGEST WEAKNESS: lack of self esteem
BIGGEST FEAR: failure
MOST MISSED MEMORY: my pappaw
FIRST THOUGHT WAKING UP: i have so much to do
IF U DONT RECOGNIE THE NUMBER ON UR CALLER ID, DO U ANSWER: nope
HOW DO U WANT TO DIE: in my sleep
DO U GET ALONG WITH UR PARENTS: yep
DO U SWEAR: yeah :P
NUMBER OF PAST THINGS U REGRET: i try and learn from my mistakes
HOW DO YOU WANT TO DIE: i just answered this :)
WHAT TIME IS IT:
5:07

50 random things about me

1. What time did you get up this morning? 4 something
2. How do you like your steak? almost burnt
3. What was the last movie you saw at the theater? The Proposal
4. What is your favorite TV show? SYTYCD, Dr. Who,Greys
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? London or Sydney
6. What did you have for breakfast? Nothing
7. What is your favorite cuisine? anything ethnic
8. What foods do you dislike? i can't eat seafood, I don't like hotdogs
9. Favorite Place to Eat? mexican places
10. What kind of vehicle do you drive? older durango
12. What are your favorite clothes? i love vintage inspired clothes
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Across the pond
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? Depends on the day I am having. Lately half full.
15. Where would you want to retire? the beach
16. Favorite time of day? late at night
17. Where were you born? Alabama
18. What is your favorite sport to watch? gymnastics
19. Who do you think will NOT tag you back? I would love anyone to do it
20. Person you expect to tag you back first? same answer
21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? same answer ;)
22. Bird watcher? I like watching them
23. Are you a morning person or a night person? Night person
24. Do you have any pets? 2 dosg and a fish
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? nope.
26. What did you want to be when you were little?to be a mommy and a doctor
27. What is your best childhood memory? Being with my family
28. Are you a cat or dog person? Dog person for sure
29. Are you married? yeah
30. Always wear your seat belt? Always!
31. Been in a car accident? a bunch
32. Any pet peeve?too many to name...basically the biggest is being close minded.
33. Favorite Pizza Toppings? lots of veggies
34. Favorite Flower? lillies
35. Favorite ice cream? banana pudding
36. Favorite fast food restaurant? Chick-fil-a
37. How many times did you fail your driver's test? once :P
38. From whom did you get your last email? library
39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? I don't have a credit card but I love any book store
40. Do anything spontaneous lately? nope
41. Happy with your job? I can't picture myself doing anything else.
42. Broccoli? i don't like the texture
43. What was your favorite vacation? love to travel anywhere
44. Last person you went out to dinner with? A group of friends from church
45. What are you listening to right now? houston talking
46. What is your favorite color? lime green or teal
47. How many tattoos do you have? one
48. How many are you tagging for this quiz? i want to see everyone's answers
49. What time did you finish this quiz? 5:2
50. Coffee Drinker? yep

My Philosophy on Raising Children

I found a cool blog that has lots of blog topics which is something I struggle with ;P

I would love to hear what your philosophy is.

NOOOOOOO Judgements.

My philosophy is basically that I don't have one...LOL....I am an adapter ;)

My philosophy is very child led. I think all children are individuals. I don't think the same philosophy works the same for any two kids.

I try to make decisions based on my values,lifestyle and what I think is best for Houston.

I admit I am a a bit "crunchy."

I don't think any philosophy is any more right than another but for US and for my child a more AP philosophy works best for us.

I wore Houston as a baby.We co slept, which I got a ton of flack for but with Houston's seizures I felt much more safe doing this than having him across our home.

I think another reason this works for us is that there is a basic belief that the baby needs to be nurtured by his parents for a few years and with Houston's autism, I couldn't agree more.

I realize that he moves at his own pace. A lot of things he did way late, a lot he did way early.

Also, we practice developmentally appropriate discipline. In some ways Houston is behind and you can't expect him to respond like a typically developing child but in a lot of ways he is cognitively a head so I know what works for him wouldn't work for another child.

I also try to limit processed foods for Houston. We try to eat as much organic stuff as possible. It may make no difference but I feel it can't hurt.

Also,Houston won't receive any more vaccinations. He started having the seizures less than 24 hours after having his first MMR so the ped and I agreed no more. Also, because of my immune issues and the fact that I don't produce the antibodies that they want your body to make it may not have been beneficial for him anyway.

I basically think Dr. Sears is a smart guy. How about you?

Choosing your religion :)

Here is an interesting set of religious questions I saw on another blog and I thought I would fill it out and would loooooveee to see your answers :) Pretty please.No judgements,whether you are a devote, an atheist etc.

1. What religion do you practice?
Roman Catholic-Christianity

2. How often do you pray?
At least a few times a day.

3. How often do you go to church?
Once a week, plus holy days of obligations.

4. What would you say is the best lesson your religion teaches?
That if you take care of the least of these you take care of me...basically.

5. What would you say you most disagree with about your religion?
I tend to be a little more liberal than most catholics but I don't think that is necessary bad. I think if you question,not necessarily disagree with, it keeps you moving forward on your journey.

6. What is one thing about your religion that affects you in daily life?
Psalms 139 comes to mind. I love that God knew who I would be,what I would do and he made me anyway.

7. What is your favorite verse from the Bible/BOM/etc?
I like Hebrews 11:1 and Psalm 139 a lot.

8. How often do you feel you pay homage to your religion?
I don't pay homage to my religion, but I do thank God for my blessing daily.

9. Can you tell me one story from the Bible that you remember having a strong impact on you?
Hm.....The widow's offering :)

10. Are there any people/stories in the Bible you show serious doubt in? If so, which story?
Since we as catholic don't take everything literally, there isn't really anything....we aren't JUST a bible based faith.

Also, I think we aren't meant to understand everything. Only God in his divinity does.

11. Would you consider yourself an adamant Christian?
I would say so....I am willing to listen to others points of view, but I am confident in my beliefs.


12. Have you ever questioned your faith?
Sure, many times...basically am I being a good enough example and putting Christ first.

13. What could bring a person to question the Christian faith?
The why do bad things happen to good people argument.

14. Do you think Christianity is the only relevant faith?
In my life yes...but I think that everyone thinks their faith is the right one.

15. Do you think Christianity is the best religion, in your opinion to raise your children on?
Of course, or I wouldn't be a practicing christian, or be raising my son that way...but like I said, I think everyone thinks they are doing what is right.


16. If your child ever did anything that went severely against Christianity, would you condemn him or her?
I wouldn't love him any less.

17. Any last notes?

Not really, I just hope someone else answers these questions :)

18. Is the religion you practice fairly common in your area?
Catholic not really.

19. Where you born into your religion or did you convert?
I am a convert.

20.Why did you convert or what caused you remain practicing?
Because it was what I felt drawn to do and what I felt was best for me.

21. Major misconception about your religion?
That we worship people besides God. We don't.

22. Best thing about your religion?
I love the sense of tradition and that it is so family oriented.

23. Worst thing?
Nothing personally for me.