I am alive and well...well on out of two ain't bad ;)

I am sorry I haven't been a good blogger. This time of year is literally hell for my system.

I feel like they don't even need to disconnect me from my iv....my freaking port is sore as heck from being used so much...when my bra strap runs across it...I shudder :P

I hate having to have it used so much because they only have a limited life....wonder what they look like??



They are implanted under the skin, mine is on my right side, on my upper chest....it is right above my breast.

They access it by using on of these needles. You can't use regular needles...



The needles aren't sharp they are super dull, so it feels like a paper clip is being shoved thru...not fun. I still hate hate hate hate it and have to fight the urge to slap my nurse...LOL

Anyway, you can see why I wouldn't want to have to get the bad boy replaced...but it is becoming obvious it is going to happen soon :P Which sucks. Wish they would last longer.

What can I do....anyway, off to do more Internet Christmas shopping...it's not quite the same but it's fun and as I am not wanting to get sicker or where a Micheal Jackson mask it'll do :)

"Run Run as fast as you can"

Houston and I had lots of fun today decorating ginerbread men :)

My little prisoner ;)

I love this little boy, even if he does make me want to run away and join the circus some days...He is a great little dude. Lucky to have him :)

I am watching Sense and Sensibility

I am watching Sense and Sensibility and man it rips my heart out EVERY SINGLE time.

I am another year older...

The day started with me getting these beautiful flowers




Got to take a nap, got to eat subway, and then got a snazzy cake and a nano and some accessories.

Good day :)

Houston cracks me up. ALWAYS the ham.

Here he is at a school function. Always looking right at the camera.

I got to buy girls stuff today and it was fun ;)

We always buy xmas for a needy family.

Moms Group at church is doing one and I get to buy for a 6 yr old girl for that family.

But Jeremy and I always do a family on our own.....well this year we did a family we three girls, a baby a little girl and a preteen and let me tell you it was so dang fun.

Got to buy disney princess stuff for once...LOL

But I liked buying the clothes and bows and babies the best :)

Decking the Halls...

We finally got the tree up last night :)

I was dreading the whole process but I didn't drag out all the extras and I am loving it now.

I just can't believe Christmas is almost here again, my birthday is this WEEK. When did that happen?

Houston is soooo stinking excited about Christmas, it cracks me up.

Got all the presents wrapped, which is a load off...now I can just enjoy :)

What are your plans for Xmas? Do you have a busy Christmas season?

I sure do!

I am already sooooo freaking tired of retreiving ornaments from Houston,getting on to him for messing with the train etc. Sheesh

I am all dreading finding a place for all these presents...

Various family members are filling me in on what they are getting Houston, a train table,gaming systems, you name it.

I swear I am going to have to add a wing on to the house.

I just found out that my grandmother is in the hospital, hopefully she gets out tomorrow. She is having blood issues. She is in the hospital getting transfusions now.

I hope everything helps and she gets out soon :(

Jeremy and I have been watching the show "Suprnatural" today and it is pretty good. I had never even heard of it before.

I got lots of good dvds the other day with birthday money....:) Yay, me.

Houston has been a little messy boy the last couple of days...the dragging out gets old :P

Sorry don't have a ton to write about...I will attempt to write more later but I can't be held accountable if I don't.

time flies by

I am sitting here looking at some old pics of Houston, and man he has grown up so much.

You take tons of pictures and think that you will never forget but it does get harder and harder to remember their little smells etc.

It flies by so fast.

You never have enough pictures.

10 guilty pleasures.....

What are your guilty pleasures?

1. I love any kind of kiddie pageant show. I am totally appalled but can't look away.
2. I love the smell of Baby Magic so much I even use it on myself.
3. I love british tv.
4. I also love british magazines.
5. I hate sweet things but love sour patch kids.
6. I love to read.
7. I still watch stuff on MTV.
8. I just bought the new Adam Lambert CD.
9. I am addicted to Diet Mt. Dew
10. I love anything vintage.

How about YOU?

Oh and happy update

Even though Houston's spine is abnormal it doesn't look like as of now that surgery is necessary :) Yay.

I will find out a little more on the 18th :)

Just wanted to let everyone know.

My birthday ain't all bad

I always hated as a little girl that my birthday feel on the weekend of the SEC championships, that is a big deal here. It used to put a major damper on things....

Well over the last few years we celebrate it will family on turkey day, it's the 4th so close enough.

Well now that I got birthday dough and it is black friday, I am thinking it ain't too bad ;)

Off to spend my money :)

Kinda in a funk

Usually the holidays make me feel happy and light but this year I am a little gloomier than usual.

Not sure why.

Maybe when I get my tree up I will get excited.

I have been sick and quarantined for so long that I think it is getting to me.

My birthday is coming up, another year older, oh JOY. One year closer to middle age.I am ALWAYS SICK OR IN THE HOSPITAL the week or Thanksgiving and my Birthday :(

Today is the anniversary of the day my mom's mother died, which makes me sad. Then I get thinking about Pap paw :( and all the special things he did for us for Christmas...and I get missing him.

I get sad that Houston will never get the excitement of having a brother or sister to share the fun of Christmas with...then I get feeling depressed, and wondering what have I done to only have one live baby out of four. Then I get feeling really bad because I do have one baby, and some people would do anything for that.

I love Houston more than life itself. He is great, I miss him tons today because he has been staying with family so I didn't get him sick. So I think that is where a lot of the yuckiness stims from.

I am really missing friends and family :(

I know I should be thankful for my blessings and I am...but I am a little sad this year too and that makes me feel quilty.

oink oink oink

Sorry I have been alive just had the grand ol' swine flu.

Yeah, it's been not too fun.Lots of extra meds and some extra iv antibiotics.

Hopefully I an on the butend of it, or I can at least hope so ;)

I have kicked butt and took names and got all the Xmas presents I already have for Houston and family today....

Today for Houston I have wrapped...:
Thomas dvd and train
another Thomas dvd and train
Thomas 3 pack dvd
Thomas 4 in 1 Book
Thomas Water Tower
Tomas bath towel
phonic game
10 Thomas trains
click start adapter, click start system and 7 games :)
2 more Thomas books
Melissa and Doug puzzle
Melissa and Doug pizza set
Melissa and Doug cupcakes
Melissa and Doug sketch pads
Another 3 pack Thomas dvd
Hi Ho Cheerio
Prayer Book
I cumin Book and 2 coloring books
Knight set
Binoculars
Operation Game
Bubble Bath Thomas set
Unexplained Books
Extreme Nature Book
Max and Ruby DVD
Creatures Book
Follow Along Reader
Airplanes
4 more Thomas trains
Frosty the Snowman-2 dvd set

and I think that is it for now :P I need to stop shopping ;) LOL

I also have folded like 9oo loads of laundry,Houston isn't home so I am moving pretty fast. Amazing how that happens ;)

Well off to get an hour power nap :)

oink onik onik

A few of my favorite things.....

I am not Oprah, so I know this isn't super exciting but here you go :) :




My latest favorite thing is any cleaning product by Mrs. Meyers.

I love the smell, they work great, they are all natural and generally just heavenly.





Speaking of smelling heavenly OMG I love the smell of this "Clean Linen" spray. You can use it on fabrics or air :)



I love this stuff, and it has a nice tingly feeling and just a hint of color.



See this well loved tin, it has one of the greatest hair products known to man, it goes everywhere with me :)



You are either team baby magic or johnson and johnson. I am team baby magic. I still use it as a soap on Houston and sometimes myself ;)

What do you love? Any recent favorites ???

Oh and a pic of the cutest boy ever ;)

Happy Halloween

Few quick pics

I have been the worst blogger in the history of blogging.

I just don't feel like anyone reads this dang thing..and I feel like I am pretty boring....well in real life, I just lose my charm on the small screen ;)

Let's see. I had the scare of my freaking life, seriously as scary as Houston's seizures when he had a bad adverse reaction to a new med.TERRIBLE. I will leave it at that.

I have been feeling like I have been run over by a mack truck and drug about a mile.
This time of year is bad for me so not unusual but worse than usual. So of course I wasn't surprised when the doc called and I have to get a another blood/iron infusion :P Gotta love being majorly chronic anemia among other things.YUCK YUCK. I really hope they have wireless Internet. I have been spoiled that I get my other infusions at home...gotta love a home health care nurse. :)

Houston's MRI for the tethered cord is fast approach, makes me want to vomit to even think about it because I mean it is my baby and his spine :(

We are having a hard time finding meds that are working for Houston has that is major stressor...but he is still as cute as ever.

I love my little guy, even if he is a wild child.

Oh, and we just redid Houston's room I will post pics in a bit :)

Does anyone still read this thing????

25 things about me...

25 random things about me....share yours :)

1. I am addicted to BBC.
2. I love Dr. Who and Torchwood. Jeremy loves them too :)
3. I am addicted to any dance show.
4. I have an inapprioate crush on Adam Lambert.
5. I am a tudor history buff.
6. I love to read historical books.
7. I have lots of scars.
8. I was born on the 4 of december, Jeremy on the 4th of november we got married on the 4th of January.
9. I gained 89 lbs with Houston and he was a almost 5 weeks early.
10. I got a new pair of boots I love.
11. I love the 80's still :)
12. I have a couple of friends who I have never "met" that I met on babyboards,etc.
13. I have listened to No Doubt since jr high.
14. I have listened to Shakira before she was cool.
15. I am catholic.
16. I love my church.
17. I love to read.
18. I am addicted to British Magazines.
19. Okay, really I am addicted to all things british.
20. And all things Lebanese :)
21. My mom, her mom, and most of my cousins shared a name. Marie
22. Houston is a family name in both mine and Jeremy's family so a great pick and it meant so much to my grandad.
23. I could almost be my younger sisters mother....people ask if she is mine.
24. I set off medical detectors.
25. I really want someone else to do this.

Blast from the past

These pics make me so happy.

I miss my little baby. He is a big boy now. I just get to see my baby ever now and then, but I love those litte glimpses.

Wave of Light- Light a Candle

Light a candle tonight at 7:00 tonight to remember all the babies who have been gone to soon.

It is National Stillbirth/Infant Loss/Miscarriage Rememberance Day.

I will light my three candles tonight. The biggest one being for my baby girl.

Thinking of all your little angels too!

I made a great find the other day....

I found the cutest bag that I am going to use for a scrapping tote....now my paper will have a home on the road.....

It is huge and it was only $1.48!!!!!!! It's cute huh? You could even use it for luggage I guess...by it fits srapping stuff perfectly. I had two people try to nab it from me on the way to the register...LOL

"Not MEEEE" Monday..

Not me...never me.

I am not sitting here watching Donny Osmand.....and wondering why I always hear "Secret Agent Man" as "Secret Asian Man"...I can't be the only one...right...NOT ME.

I didn't have to spend over $200 dollars at the grocery store because I had let the groceries get so low....I would never let my family be without food...NOT ME.

I didn't not let Houston not get a 6th movie at the library so I could get DWTS Cardio Dance...that would make me a selfish mommy...NOT ME.

I don't have an inapproriate crush on Maks on DWTS...that would be wrong...NOT ME.

I don't think that Aaron Carter's outfit made him look like the Lucky Charms dude...NOT ME.

I did not just pour myself a margarita....that would make me a lush....NOT ME!

I did not accidently bite into my fever blister...which was then hanging half on and half on...I did not just rip the attached part free...I then did not bleed in large amounts from said spot for abour 30 minutes...that would be DISGUSTING....NOT ME.

I do not STILL have a load of laundry to do...that would be really depressing...NOT ME.


How about "Not" you......

Sitting outside, enjoying the weather...

Man, we have had the best weather the last couple of days. I love love love the beginning of fall. That little bit of crispness you feel in the air, everything smells so clean.

I love sweatshirt weather. I love love love the fall.

Can I mention again that I love fall.

It puts a smile on my face for the humidity to be gone from the air and a hint of a breeze in it's place.

Had a busy day or errands today, I feel uber tired considering I just got my treatment. I am rocking a totally nasty looking fever blister which goes along nicely with the ulcers all in my mouth and down my throat.

I am thinking tomorrow when I go for my doc appt that the antibvirals are going to be upped...call me crazy ;)

I am going to take it easy tonight..watch me some tv, bath the kiddo, and relax...easier said than done.

Heros and DWTS is on....I will be frantically flipping between both but I can catch Heros on demand so I am not super worried.

I dread the drive to the doctor tomorrow. Last time I was there was a lady having a stroke in the car next to me that I had to help....only me. I hope she was okay.

Got some much needed grocery shopping done today, which with Houston is like the 5 circle of hell. Actually, he was great today though. He even let me pile things on him. I had to but him in one of those huge ones that you can barely control without taking out a display of something.

I have so much cleaning I need to get done this week. If I could get to half of it I would be happy. We will see.

Hope Houston has a good week at school. Mr. Chatterbox needs to keep his little trap closed. Imagine a child of mine a chatterbox...who would have thought...LOL. Heaven help Jeremy. I should just had him earmuffs when he comes in the door.

I am watching the sunset and thinking that life doesn't get much better, then I accidently bite into a mouth ulcer...and think okay it can... but it is pretty nice.

I love a beautiful sunset.

Long time no talk updates and more.

My computer died. I have been computerless for 2 weeks. It was tough but refreshing.

We are finally a little more well...yay, us. Got a few doc appts next week but they are the regular ones.

Houston had his 5 year check up. Looked pretty good but he has to have an MRI within the next month because it looks like he has a tethered spinal cord. We always new he had a dimple at the base of his spine that they have watched to make sure it wasn't leaking spinal fluid. Well now apparently it looks like the spinal cord is basically attached to his tailbone.

He has been a nightmare to be accident free in underwear. He constantly still has accidents. The ped seems to think that it is probably why. We always thought it was his seizure meds that were reducing senstation but basically if it is is tethered then the nerves are being pulled and that would explain it.

If it is thethered they will have to detach it because it can be very painful and you can get some major damage if it rips free.

So I will keep you posted on all that.

So he will be sedated and they will do an indepth scan to see what is up.

Of course, his appointment was yesterday. I watched Grey's Anatomy last night and what was wrong with the teenage boy. Same thing...what are the odds? :P

My hard drive had to be replaced so I gotta rebookmark...talk about a pain :P

A little glimpse into my mind....

I found a website that has all kinds of blog topics for a lazy blogger like me it is PERFECTION.
I am going to answer three:
_______________________________________________________________________________________
Question Uno-
My Favourite Item of Clothing Growing Up:

I had two the first were my jelly shoes. I loved these things...I had them in so many colors. They were perfection in my eyes except for the inevitable happened. You stepped on a rock.

It felt like a knife was going up the bottom of your foot...so you would do the one foot hobble until you could sit down to remove.

But they little waffle shaped pattern on bottom meant you had to use something akin to a prison shank to get it out.

Fun times.

My other favorite was this necklace. Not even sure what is was called. But I felt like the coolest cat in town. I remember my favorite charm was a little mini lipstick.



Now on to Question Dos....

If This Celebrity Knocked On My Door, I’d Run Away With Them:

It would have to be Adam Lambert. I know the man is gay....but there is something about him that is hot...what can I say.

Also, he seems like he would give way great fashion advice.

He seems like a really nice guy.

And last but not least have you heard him sing??

And the final question for today:

My Most Hated Movie:

I think this answer may get my woman card revoked. One actor I don't care for at all...is........
please don't throw things at me.....is.........

Tom Cruise.

I would rather have spikes driven in my eyes.

My least favorite movie would have to be Top Gun :O

What about you?

Testing testing...is this thing on...

Does anyone read this thing anymore.

Doesn't really seem like it. Try to decide if I should make it private and keep it as a journal, don't think anyone would miss it.

Last night I had fun. Went over to a friends house to scrapbook, for the first time in last a year. Me, so glad to be out of the house...really just ran my jaws, talked about infants,weddings, pregnancies...all that girlie stuff. So fun.

Then the shoe dropped...dundundudndun..I spilled a drink..which I still feel bad about. Luckily, most of the drink went into my scrapbooking bag. Good for me...not so good for the supplies...but who cares. I was terrified I had gimped up something at my friends house for life.

I still feel bad. I think I apologized to many times they wanted to take me out into the yard and beat me like a pinata. I would have wanted to ....I annoy myself quite a bit.

Houston is at my in-laws, Jeremy is working and on call...I have NO idea what to do with myself. I am thinking the library...whoooo hoooo I am SUCH the rebel. I am 110% NERD.No one my child calls me poindexter.

I am trying to find things to do besides clean...can you tell. If you can keep it to yourself ;)

Revamping the blog..just messing around.....

Not much going on today. Trying to stay awake. Didn't sleep much last night.

Last night, after much sleep deprivation I was hooking up my computer to watch netflix. The computer then fell off the tv. I proceed to avert my eyes...scared of what I would see.

My litte mini computer is fine. How is that possible?

I promise I will be back when I am not so loopy from no sleep:P

Just some notes from the last few days.

Friday- Houston had his party at preschool. With his mispelled birthday cake.



Saturday-We just did family fun stuff.Houston seemed a little puny. Got him a movie for his Birthday.

Sunday-Ran a fever. Didn't go to church :( Let him get O'Charley's for lunch. His pick. He didn't eat it....got more feverish.

Let him choose a birthday gift.

He choose a lego batman game and some megablocks.

Came home acted really sick.

Then the pukefest began.

Then he laid down.

Woke up puked more.

I drug his crib mattress...hey it's plastic easy to clean into the living room and laid it next to the couch where we laid the rest of the night....I thanked God many times last night that I had the foresight to get wood floors.

Woke up this morning....still puny but no "barking" as Houston says. :)

Happy Birthday!

5 years ago today...God gave the best gift ever

This precious little boy.Didn't find out I was pregnant until I was almost half way through,against the advice of the doctors...gained 89 lbs,went into premature labor at 29.5 weeks...was on bedrest from that point on,had him early......and you know what.........I wouldn't change a thing.

I love my little man with all my heart. I can still remember the feeling when they laid him on my chest. I can still remember holding him for the first time, nursing him for the first time, having to frantically cut surgerical masks to make him little g-string diapers when he was under the lights for jaundice.

I can still remember when I had the pleasure of holding up his little head because he couldn't do it himself.



I can still remember how he screamed constantly. Colic isn't fun.



But it is worth it.

Because they turn into smiley little boys like this.



Those little boys learn to do all kids of things...they think their mommy and daddy are the coolest people in the world.






They do get attitude from time to time but for the most part they are happy :)

It boggles my mind that you go from this:


To this..bring him home from the hospital.



To this,wearing his birthday hat in such a short time :(



It seems like only yesterday, I was holding a screaming baby, that he was getting his first tooth(4 months), walking (7.5months),saying his first word...which was hello. and now he loves batman, transformers, space, tornados


Sigh.

SHOW US YOUR WEDDING SHOWER...

I read http://www.kellyskornerblog.com daily, it's a great blog. She has the cutest baby girl, a great woman of God and she does all kinds of things like "Show us your Wedding", "Show us your Nurseries" etc.

This week....she wants to see your wedding shower...so here is my Bridal Tea...the only one I have pics of here :P

These were all predigi. The tea was in Nov. 2002, I got married in Jan. 2003.

Here they are:

They are pics from my scrapbook...so BEWARE ;)









Those are all the goodies and the tables:)

Here is the most shocking of all....



Yes, my hair is blonde....no my eyebrows aren't...not sure WHAT I was thinking but


I came to my senses and it was back to it's natural color by my wedding ;)